quick honest thought
Dec. 23rd, 2004 06:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
winterlionI actually don't know how I feel about anyone until a situation actually comes up. It's kind of weird.
Years and years ago I learned "universal love" - the kind Jesus preached about (not his followers). It's a strange headspace. It's gotten me into trouble at various points through the years but basically I loveeveryone . I just may not like some people. It's not the same thing. It's not a sexual thing or a possessive thing but a caring warm welcoming thing. Strangely this is also why I could be a soldier if it ever came up. hrm. That's hard to explain too.
flip side
Me and most of my emotions aren't how you'd say - close. I've had so many people confuse and belittle my emotions I tend not to listen to them too much anymore. I'd very much like that to change. The few I can share easily are the few I've come to grips with.
It's probably going to take a while. I'm certainly looking forward to it...
(yes this includes crushes, attractions and a lot of the other more fun ones as well as the not so fun ones)
of course sometimes my heart goes and tells me something and I have to listen. Those are the most frustrating times because usually my heart is wrong wrong wrong.
*sigh*
Oh well...
someday
Years and years ago I learned "universal love" - the kind Jesus preached about (not his followers). It's a strange headspace. It's gotten me into trouble at various points through the years but basically I love
flip side
Me and most of my emotions aren't how you'd say - close. I've had so many people confuse and belittle my emotions I tend not to listen to them too much anymore. I'd very much like that to change. The few I can share easily are the few I've come to grips with.
It's probably going to take a while. I'm certainly looking forward to it...
(yes this includes crushes, attractions and a lot of the other more fun ones as well as the not so fun ones)
of course sometimes my heart goes and tells me something and I have to listen. Those are the most frustrating times because usually my heart is wrong wrong wrong.
*sigh*
Oh well...
someday
